Sharing About The Past?

First love, second love, third love..

There’s a quote : First love, is the everlasting one. Eventhough it doesn’t literally ever last, but it does stay in your mind forever. Doesn’t it? (I’m asking doesn’t mean I’m agreeing..~)

Everything starts with the firsts. But the firsts do not always last..that’s why we’ll have the second and the third. Definitely beybeh! Haha..

Emm…okay, let’s put it this way.. what I’m gonna talk in this post is…about sharing the past-failed-love relationship histories with your current other half, that might be.. your last one. So what’s your opinion ppl? Do you really think it’s fine for us to be open with our bf/gf talking about the loves that came before you met him/her? Is that necessary?

The fact that, when we are head-over-heels into that someone, we craveee to know anything and everything and every single thing about the special someone. His backgrounds, his families, his friends, his stuffs, his activities, his whateva! Including, his previous..love. Because we came filling the empty spaces in the heart which previously owned by..someone else. The heart which we were not destined to be the first one to conquer. Nah, admit it. The curiosity is apparent. Everyone craves to know about it. You crave to know about it. Me? C’mon…trust me, I DON’T.

“Salz, you’re denying.” “No, it’s not a denial”

So ok, let me share with you all my opinions. Honestly, before the current one, I’ve gone thru phases of loves..meeting a guy, being in love, quarrelling, loving, jealousy, missing, caring etc…Until the phase that there’s no solution anymore, breakups took its charge. Being single…frustrations, loneliness, freedom. Going with the flow, we wished to forget the dreadful memories but c’mon, it’s not that easy isn’t it? Then we tend to talk about it from time to time, once in a while. We do that with our buddies..meaning, girls buddies.. but then, what about until the part that we’ve met a new ‘someone’? Are we still gonna talk about it anymore, with him?

It’s like, “sharing-everything-yet-no-secrecy-between-us” promises? No, no…that’s not my style. We’ve heard this : Let bygone be bygone. So? Let it go! Like me and my darl, our relationship is still so new.. It’s been a long time since the first time we met (refer to the love story post =p) but we were not fated to be together back then. Him with his things, me with my own life. Only after a few years, the time came. And up until now, I can say it’s one of the most precious things that has ever happened in my life…Fine, I know it’s still early for me to say that..Don’t know what’s gonna happen in the future..But the thing is, I appreciate every single moment being with him..Yes, appreciate what you have now. Why should we turn back remembering the past, where your ‘now’ is creating its memories? Hold on to it..Pay attention to it..

InsyaAllah, we'll have a few years more on the way to the ‘big day’..Meanwhile, it’s the time for us to get to know each other..yet, knowing your partner is never-ending I must say..so why waste time talking about the dark past? Guess it's none of either party’s business and no good for the relationship if it's thrown out when the relationship is too immature for us to be able to put it in proper perspective and determine if we can handle the details or not…Easy that is, keep it silent then maybe we can forget about it someday? Too good to be true..hahah.. Still, hopefully so.

And the same goes to him.. Guess he went thru tough times before..Being broken-hearted..Dunno the details..So juz let it be. I also have my typical-lady-emotion to control..So be selfish this time. It’s for the sake of our relationship. It’s for our own good. We’re not each other’s first love..Of course, bcoz we met only at our mid-20s so most ppl have started to be in a love relationship earlier than these ages. Nevertheless, first love doesn’t always have to be the true love rite..It can only be an experience and failure is a better teacher so take the lessons from the history. We gotta do the best for our relationship despite the darkness of our past.

And my past? Well, I’m smiling now.. be adult guys, forgive and forget..if you couldn’t forget, just don’t care. For anything that happened, we might also be at fault. So move on. Remember, pay attention to your now. It’s creating memories so don’t miss every single dot coz it will be reminisced. To my exes, wishing you all the best with the love of your life now..Kawin xyah jemput. Haha…

Specially for my syg…
“After I found you..My life becomes all about making you happy..”